He lowered his blood tainted sword to welcome the end of the war. But what awaited him was a disturbing silence. The sun was shining bright over a thousand corpses. It was not the light of glory but something painted in the color of pain and misery. He felt a thousand souls were trapped in a tornado somewhere, and it was leaving behind a path of destruction. With what logic would you castigate someone who killed a man as a murderer and at the same breath venerate another who killed hundreds as a warrior?He didn't seem to comprehend.
As he strolled over the pile of dead bodies, the light of the sun was fading. He looked up the sky to see the sun being engulfed in darkness. Its the day of the black sun. Its a metamorphosis ,an alchemy, something that will transport from the known to the unknown realm, in a way similar to what he was experiencing from inside. He could feel the power of the transition that almost burned his eyes. How he wished his eyes got similar powers. That he could only look into something heinous and burn them in dark flames but he would probably burn himself too. Its the darkest day over the land and the only thing he did was wait.
As darkness thoroughly consumed the land, he vaguely saw the figure of a boy. He walked towards him. The boy murmured," If wars are going to continue this way, I will become God himself."
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
25 things you should know about me
I was supposed to do this tag along time ago. I should clarify first that I am doing not out of compulsion nor out of lack of material. But, it would actually be interesting to see if I can put together an honest interpretation of myself and translate it without any refinement. Some of these details might already be known and I am not going to write whether I belong to a different planet or not :)
The rules -
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
1. I love dozing in green pastures(esp. when the contour of the land is slightly elevated), fold my hands and locked it behind my head, indulge myself in a world created by illusions. In other words I am a dreamer. People say some are realist some are dreamers. I guess you can categorized me in the latter genre.
2. I am still aimless about what my goals are. I tend to think goals in life as being different from career choice or tasting success.
3. I always dream about traveling the world, know about different people and their cultures.
4. I like people who have a good taste in food.(literally and figuratively speaking)
5. Once, I jumped down from the first floor because the elders started suspecting me and my friends were upto something (they were right though). This happened only a week after the plasters in my leg were removed.
6. I am very bad in planning. I seldom do it.
7. I love the company of gals.(not in the other sense) :P
8.The Ace of Spades is my favorite card. If possible, I keep it for my last play.
9. I despise astrologers.
10. I love cooking for myself.
11. I am in pursuit of expanding my collection of documentaries on rock bands histories .
12. Learning the meaning of people's names is one of my idiosyncrasies. Don't be alarmed if I ask yours too. 'Anagha' which means sinless is one of the favorite I came across.
13. Topics on God, religion , life, death,time, rock and roll are ice breakers when it comes to starting a conversation with me.
14. I am also an 'aspirational hobbyist' which Shantanu coined it. I wanted to become a fighter after watching Tony Jaa, an actor after getting awestruck by every one of Tom Hanks' performances, a sportsperson during the world cup days, wanted to be in a band everytime I hear an Iron Maiden's number.
15. I regretted the fact that I don't have enough pictures of my childhood days.
16. I have always admired people who are good in writing but not necessarily so for those who are good in talking.
17.I really don't like smoking but I have tried it.
18. I am a comic follower till this day. I even have a list of my own top 10 favorite comics.
19. I don't like heavy make-up in gals.
20.I have bunked classes the most on mondays and fridays and very rarely on saturdays. Maybe its because I was born on a saturday(I know the logic sounds absurb).
21.Whenever I get bored in a particular class, I used to entertain myself by calculating the love-hate relationship percentage of every gal I knew, on the last page of my notebook.
22. I am habituated to give people petnames.(esp. to the ones close to me)
23.If I ever have a son, I would want him to grow up to be a sportsperson.
24.Black is my favorite color when it comes to the choice of color in clothes.
25.I am a devoted 'window shopaholic' and I have no qualms about it.
Thats all. On the hindsight I think I could have listed a few more. I tag this to
Shantanu
Ankit
Rojit
Michael
The rules -
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
1. I love dozing in green pastures(esp. when the contour of the land is slightly elevated), fold my hands and locked it behind my head, indulge myself in a world created by illusions. In other words I am a dreamer. People say some are realist some are dreamers. I guess you can categorized me in the latter genre.
2. I am still aimless about what my goals are. I tend to think goals in life as being different from career choice or tasting success.
3. I always dream about traveling the world, know about different people and their cultures.
4. I like people who have a good taste in food.(literally and figuratively speaking)
5. Once, I jumped down from the first floor because the elders started suspecting me and my friends were upto something (they were right though). This happened only a week after the plasters in my leg were removed.
6. I am very bad in planning. I seldom do it.
7. I love the company of gals.(not in the other sense) :P
8.The Ace of Spades is my favorite card. If possible, I keep it for my last play.
9. I despise astrologers.
10. I love cooking for myself.
11. I am in pursuit of expanding my collection of documentaries on rock bands histories .
12. Learning the meaning of people's names is one of my idiosyncrasies. Don't be alarmed if I ask yours too. 'Anagha' which means sinless is one of the favorite I came across.
13. Topics on God, religion , life, death,time, rock and roll are ice breakers when it comes to starting a conversation with me.
14. I am also an 'aspirational hobbyist' which Shantanu coined it. I wanted to become a fighter after watching Tony Jaa, an actor after getting awestruck by every one of Tom Hanks' performances, a sportsperson during the world cup days, wanted to be in a band everytime I hear an Iron Maiden's number.
15. I regretted the fact that I don't have enough pictures of my childhood days.
16. I have always admired people who are good in writing but not necessarily so for those who are good in talking.
17.I really don't like smoking but I have tried it.
18. I am a comic follower till this day. I even have a list of my own top 10 favorite comics.
19. I don't like heavy make-up in gals.
20.I have bunked classes the most on mondays and fridays and very rarely on saturdays. Maybe its because I was born on a saturday(I know the logic sounds absurb).
21.Whenever I get bored in a particular class, I used to entertain myself by calculating the love-hate relationship percentage of every gal I knew, on the last page of my notebook.
22. I am habituated to give people petnames.(esp. to the ones close to me)
23.If I ever have a son, I would want him to grow up to be a sportsperson.
24.Black is my favorite color when it comes to the choice of color in clothes.
25.I am a devoted 'window shopaholic' and I have no qualms about it.
Thats all. On the hindsight I think I could have listed a few more. I tag this to
Shantanu
Ankit
Rojit
Michael
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
THE SYSTEM HAS FAILED- A METAPHOR
As I slowly released the clutch from my hand, the instincts took over. There is kinship in the dynamics of the rider and his machine. But the machine is just another means to an end. Although I was committed to follow the rules of the road , the impediments existing in the circumstances never favored my liking. Embracing the wrong side of the lane seemed like a pretty easy decision. I had the zeal to face the perils and eulogize myself as a rider in the storm.
The fervor was slowly curbed by the fear of the uncertainty of misfortune. There were myriads of riders from the other direction, riders like me but it doesn't make a difference to them if my life was worth more than that of an insect. I lamented every blinking second for being on the wrong side of the lane and reaching my destination seemed like a shot in the dark. I survived the predicament inconceivably. If the vehicle or my skills had failed me, it would have been fateful. Would every decision I take be venomous? How many times can a man survive on erroneously ill-planned decision? If I were a free man, I would rather be in chains for a free man doesn't follow any particular direction.
As I disembarked ,I was taken aback by a startling revelation. The road signs were pointing to the same direction as I was following and everyone else was in defiance.
The fervor was slowly curbed by the fear of the uncertainty of misfortune. There were myriads of riders from the other direction, riders like me but it doesn't make a difference to them if my life was worth more than that of an insect. I lamented every blinking second for being on the wrong side of the lane and reaching my destination seemed like a shot in the dark. I survived the predicament inconceivably. If the vehicle or my skills had failed me, it would have been fateful. Would every decision I take be venomous? How many times can a man survive on erroneously ill-planned decision? If I were a free man, I would rather be in chains for a free man doesn't follow any particular direction.
As I disembarked ,I was taken aback by a startling revelation. The road signs were pointing to the same direction as I was following and everyone else was in defiance.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
WALK
Its the road where it all started.
We hold each other and promised
Never to be divided.
But as all these images unfold,
I gaze only to see our footprints have vanished.
I walk solemnly in this abandoned road.
As I struggle through the passage,
I can feel the place I love the most ,when I am with you
Turn into worthless tears.
I let my angel fly from here.
There would be another road for you to walk,
But I am fated to wander here like an echo from the past.
I would close my eyes and pray
To find you here, hold you close,
And take the walk for one last time.
We hold each other and promised
Never to be divided.
But as all these images unfold,
I gaze only to see our footprints have vanished.
I walk solemnly in this abandoned road.
As I struggle through the passage,
I can feel the place I love the most ,when I am with you
Turn into worthless tears.
I let my angel fly from here.
There would be another road for you to walk,
But I am fated to wander here like an echo from the past.
I would close my eyes and pray
To find you here, hold you close,
And take the walk for one last time.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
THE SURVIVOR WITHIN
The smoke from his cigarette never fades out. Curiously enough his facial expression looks the same. Uncle Deepak has always been this way since the day I have known him. His well-built and suave looks always camouflages his seething health issues. A Major in his glory days ,now he can't even support his family anymore. Aunty and their three daughters live in a different home. They say they cant watch him fade away to emptiness. Surprisingly, he is quite soft spoken for a retired military personnel and has a tacit way of expressing things. He loves his wine and has a varied and blended collection.
He never refers to me by my pet name. I always thought he would make a great teacher if given the chance. Sometimes I wish I had the same insights about life as he has but never even for once desired to live the life the way he did. I would try to share a lot of ideas with him mostly about death , politics and war.
"It would be fair to say that death is a part of life."
"I haven't really understood why we go to war, I was doing my job." ,I could remember him saying each of these lines on two different occassions. I would ask what he thought about the army gradually losing respect esp. in the north east because of cases of human rights violation.
"It should not have happened." ,would be his curt reply.
"Uncle, were you proud of what you did in the army?"
"Of course!"
"Do you consider yourself as a hero?"
"No."
"Then what else can you be uncle?"
"I am a survivor. "
Till this day, I have never felt there is a more majestic word .
He never refers to me by my pet name. I always thought he would make a great teacher if given the chance. Sometimes I wish I had the same insights about life as he has but never even for once desired to live the life the way he did. I would try to share a lot of ideas with him mostly about death , politics and war.
"It would be fair to say that death is a part of life."
"I haven't really understood why we go to war, I was doing my job." ,I could remember him saying each of these lines on two different occassions. I would ask what he thought about the army gradually losing respect esp. in the north east because of cases of human rights violation.
"It should not have happened." ,would be his curt reply.
"Uncle, were you proud of what you did in the army?"
"Of course!"
"Do you consider yourself as a hero?"
"No."
"Then what else can you be uncle?"
"I am a survivor. "
Till this day, I have never felt there is a more majestic word .
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
FEAR THE DARK FOREVER
Are you a man who fear noiselessness?
Does your mind enjoy playing games with your senses?
Have you ever imagined how the unknown will manipulate your existence?
I sense an undeniable presence of someone or something,
And it feeds on darkness and fear.
Can you help me drive out my nightmares?
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a constant fear that someones always near.
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a phobia that someones is always there
How many times have I strolled alone
In a lifeless road into a lightless world?
Just to get harassed by the sensation that someone is following me,
Only to find that I am a man walking alone.
I seek light only to be engulfed by darkness
Would somebody guide me where the boundary of darkness and light stand?
Would I be chastised if I cannot escape my shadows?
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a constant fear that someones always near
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a phobia that someones is always there
When I m walking a dark road I am a man who walkes alone.
P.S: This is just another one of my versions of the song "Fear of the dark" (one of my favorite heavy metal songs) by Iron Maiden . The words don't mean much to me and its just an attempt at art.
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